"O LORD, be gracious to us; we wait for you.
Be our arm every morning,
our salvation in the time of trouble."
Isaiah 33:2
I have been trying to carve out time to sit down, take a breath, and use the creative spaces of my brain to write a blog but I didn't know how exhausted I would be after closing on my home.
I have not forgotten you [the reader] ;) This blog is on my mind D A I L Y.
Since I last blogged:
I have learned so much about the depth of God's care and love for me.
I moved into my home and had a beautiful community of friends helping me paint, move furniture, teaching me how to spackle, and bringing me food those first few days.
I have slowly accumulated furniture from Facebook Marketplace and my home is looking more and more like how I envisioned it in my head.
There are very specific things I was looking for when it came to furnishing my home. At times I felt a little picky but I knew what I wanted and I wasn't going to settle for "I guess that's fine."
The Father knew every single thing that was on my heart when it came to furniture, decorations, whites with woods and greenery, and He knew the atmosphere and environment I wanted to create; safe, cozy, warm, inviting.
These things weren't things I openly spoke about per say, but I had such a vivid picture in my mind, aesthetically, of what I wanted. And to watch the Lord provide these EXACT things blew my mind! My dream was becoming a reality. Let me break it down for you:
A 6.5 foot dark grey couch that could seat between 3-4 people (or more). Basically brand new. No stains, no rips, nothing. $90.
A two-tiered dark wood coffee table. Basically new. No damage. $80.
A long rectangular farmhouse dining room table that seats 6-8. New. $90.
A Christmas tree. Free.
A real wreath for my front door. Free.
A black and wood bakers rack for my kitchen. Free.
Basically new T-Fal pots and pans. Free.
Decor, kitchen utensils, glassware, storage containers. Gifts from people.
You get the idea. I have purchased minimal items for this home and when I tell you I get teary-eyed every time I walk into my house, it's the truth.
Through the love, support, gifts, cards, items purchased, I can literally feel the love in this home. And it's what I want everyone who walks through my door to feel.
His love. For them.
He is in the details. He hears. He sees. He knows.
T R U L Y.
And I'm not just saying that because He gifted me with things for my home that I wanted. I am speaking from an inner place of quiet desperation before the Father that is not always outwardly visible. Questioning. Doubting. Praying constantly. Worried. Anxious. Tears. "Lord, I don't know how this is going to work out." "Lord, I don't know where I'm going to find _________."
"Lord, where are the finances going to come from?" "Lord, how am I going to find __________ and stay within my budget?"
He was in all of these details and continues to be. He is good.
I'm not saying He's only good when He provides what I pray for, because I know what it looks like to be in a dark season and wrestle and mourn and grieve, and still declare "You are good." Those declarations NEVER came without a fight.
I'm saying in His goodness and in His kindness He has provided. And He is good. And I am grateful.
[Like I have mentioned in past blogs, it's not about the answered prayer. It's just about Him. We get HIM and that's enough. What is He teaching you amidst the waiting; about Himself and yourself?]
Friend, I don't know what kind of season you're in as you read this. I don't know if it's been a hard one, fruitful one, joyful one, or sorrowful one. I just want you to know that Jesus HEARS you. He hears.
He hears the unspoken prayers on your heart and mind.
He hears the unsaid things that are tucked away in the quiet corners of your heart.
He hears the thoughts that you keep going over and over in your mind.
He wants to know all of these things.
I am praying He gives you the eyes to see Himself at work in your life. Even in the small details.
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